Monday, January 31, 2011

Where To Go From Here

I lost my job on Friday.
 
    I planned on penning something eloquent in order to express how I truly feel about this but the words just won't come.
 
        At four o'clock on Friday afternoon, I was called into the office where the owner of the company I worked for and my supervisor told me that we would be closed effective immediately.

      I wanted to throw my chair at the owner, scream that he had ruined my life and storm out. I wanted to tell him that he was terrible at running a company; how I had no idea how I am going to pay my bills simply because he is incompetent.  

       But just like any good "I'm done with this stupid company" dream scenario, everything I wanted to do fell by the wayside as I tears formed tributaries on my face. I cried during the entire thing as my rich boss told me that I'd get two weeks severance.  Before I left he added that he'd be more than happy to supply any reference for my outstanding work.  I didn't have the strength to tell him that I would never, as long as I live as him for reference.  He had no idea what I did there or what I did for that company.  He sat atop his throne and looked down at his peons, waiting for the perfect moment to pull the rug out from beneath us to watch us fall.

   I'm lost.  I have no idea where to go from here.

      I'm going to disappear for a little while to a land of snow, Momma and snowmobiling.  Home is the perfect solitude to find my ground.

    There is so much more that I need to write but adventure calls.






15 comments:

heyBJK said...

I'm very sorry to hear of your job loss! It's always a difficult situation to be in and perhaps a bit more so with the current state of things.

Nothing I say, particularly as a relative stranger, will change anything or make you feel better. Everybody wants to offer advice in these cases because it seems like the thing to do, but we've all heard it. You don't strike me as the type to throw in the towel and I would't expect you to do it now.

Just wanted to offer my meager words of support.

Trey said...

I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Every challenge offers an oportunity! You seem like the type to take challenges head on!! I'm sure you will come out just fine!

Ian Nance said...

So sorry to hear of your loss.

Albert Quackenbush said...

Losing your job is terrifying. HLYH, I have been there and it is no fun. The only advice I will offer is to follow your instincts, trust your gut and do what you can to ease your mind. It certainly won't seem like it now, but things will turn around. I will be praying for you, too. No promises, but when you get back from playing in the snow, shoot me your resume. I wish you the best. Dress warm for the ADKs!

Murphyfish said...

HLYH,
There is not much that I could say here that would make any differance to what turmoil is spinning around inside of you at the moment. Al I can say is that it will get better and in time you'll be all the stronger for it. But for now the only words that seem apt are a Wooldridge clan mantra (sort of) and they are "don't let the buggers grind you down". If there's anything that I can do from this side of the pond I'll give it my best shot. Chin up gal, worst things happen at sea you know...
John

SimplyOutdoors said...

Well...that sucks. I'm sure a little dose of home will help, and in no time we'll be hearing about your new job adventure.

Keep your chin up.

Bobby Nations said...

Run, do not walk, and get that reference!

You earned it just as much as you did every paycheck, so don't throw it away. References make a big difference when interviewing for your next job. And there will be another job.


The voice of experience (twice)

Blessed said...

Ugh. Sorry to hear that - my husband lost his job two years ago - 2 weeks after we found out I was 3 months pregnant with baby #2. Completely scary.

Enjoy your dose of adventure and good luck finding another job.

Nebraska Hunting Company said...

Sorry to hear that! I guess I picked a bad time to stop by your blog; I found it through my friend Albert at The Rasch Outdoor Chronicles™. I’ll be reading your archives as the weeks continue. I’m getting ready for what will undoubtedly be a huge Snow Goose season, so I will be in and out for the next few weeks. I hope things work out for you, and remember, where one door closes, another is soon to open!

Thanks again!
Scott Croner
Nebraska Hunting Company™

Rick Kratzke said...

Not much to say but I am so sorry to hear that.

Take a break and get your bearing!

Rick Kratzke said...

I also wanted to tell you that I gave you an award.

http://whitetailwoods.blogspot.com/2011/02/whitetail-woods-receives-stylish.html

Albert A Rasch said...

Alright there HLYH, what's the prognosis? You up and at 'em yet? A young woman like you, smart and with it, should have no problem turning this around, we have every confidence in you!

Keep us posted!
Albert

Hunt Like You're Hungry said...

All-
First of all- you are AMAZING for all of these encouraging words. I've been looking into graduate school as of a couple of months ago so that is still in the cards. However, I need some way to support myself until the fall semester rears its ugly head. Nothing has happened as of yet. There have been some interesting job opportunities that I became aware of from one of my best blogging compatriots. I believe that I am under qualified for them but we'll see in the near future if my assessment of my skills is as sub-par as I view them.
As for right now, however I'm spending my last day in Old Forge, NY. The snow is beautiful and the snowmobiling as been nothing short of extraordinary. I'll have a lot to write about (getting DU's Denali stuck in 6 feet of snow and Titus taking a 4-mile jaunt away from camp, etc.) once I get back home.
I can't thank everyone enough for their kind words and support. I would be even more of a mess than I already am without you guys, so thank you, thank you , thank you.

Until I write again,
HLYH

NorCal Cazadora said...

Hey, sorry I've taken forever to jump in, but I'd like to echo everyone else's encouragement here - including getting that reference. References are EVERYTHING, particularly if the people you're applying to personally know this guy (and you never can tell).

I hope the outdoor adventures helped restore your soul a bit. Beats the hell out of civilization.

Swamp Thing said...

That sucks. So sorry to hear it :(